Journal Of The Walking Care Bear

Wow!

2010-01-07T17:52:54Z

I'm playing a lot of Super Egg Hunt today, it takes my mind off stuff. I'm here to report just making a score of 199! I can't believe it! I knew it was going to be good, but didn't realize it'd be anything like that! Just yay!

One Step Closer!

2010-01-06T04:24:09Z

Hi peeps. Today has been quite good. I didn't get to bed till quite late last night, cos we were reading a book together. I woke up late morning, after a horrible nightmare about being in some awful orphanage with a matron that beat us with a stick. Anyway, I was glad to wake up, even though it was absolutely freezing cold!

So, got up, had brekky, spent some time with Nanna, then got ready to go to the hospital. Wootcakes, the ear is now ok, so yay for that! After hospital, Bess took us shopping. Post-Christmas economy drive has set in, and you know how it is, when there's hardly any money is when you run out of abso bloody lutely everything! Well, we got it done in the end!

Got back and made fried chicken with mashed potatoes and mushrooms and gravy for dinner, we were starvacious indeed!

After dinner, when I was back at the computer, I checked my home E-mail, and found a mail from the lawyers. Decree Nisi is now granted, so as soon as the finances finally get settled, we can go for absolute. So freedom is one step closer, praise God!

Well, I don't reckon I'll be up much longer, cos I'm shattered! I must see if we have any extra covers for the bed, it's going to get even colder! Huge hugs, night night all!

Monday Monday!

2010-01-04T20:54:59Z

Hi everyone, just a quick entry, first and foremost, to wish many many happy returns of the day to fleurette67 it's great to look back and remember all the time we've been friends, and to hope for many more years of the same.

Yesterday was an ok kind of day, I got to church for a change, had a lovely time there. It really was freezing, freezing cold! After church we just did our things. I think there's a new arrangement in the offing. Oh, as of about an hour ago, the new soundpack is up on Qwitter, go get it!

Today I'm just thinking about all my friends, some of whom I have rather lost touch with. I'm listening to one of Rory Hoffman's songs and wondering how he is and what he's up to. I don't have his mail addy here, or I'd write and ask him! I had a mail from another friend today, and answered it, gives you a nice warm glow when that kind of stuff happens. And of course I have Twitter, for all my little tweetie birds. I'm just so lucky to have made so many great friends all over the place. Huggies to you all.

Ok, time to stop driveling and split! You know, things to do, people to see, places to go. Not! Lolol! Laters all!

A Productive One.

2010-01-03T04:34:40Z

Hi peeps. Well, today has been productive. I was awoken by the phone, it was Tal, calling Charles about some technical thing he needed help with. It was nice to be up relatively early. I nerdled about some, read some of my old LJ, I'm kind of into that right now. Anyway, I then had an idea for a new soundpack. World of wind chimes is fairly self-explanitory, but there's so many yummy chimes on my fave website, it was easy to do. I wanted this one soft, non-intrusive, and full of magic, and I think it's a doozy, though I say it as shouldn't. I don't really want to give a link here, I want it to go up to central and be downloaded from there, cos then I can see how many it's getting. But, if I haven't seen a post from the soundpack man telling us it's up by tomorrow night, I'll put it up to my droppy and let you have the link.

Later on, when Nanna had gone to bed, I drug out my story, Promise. I read through it, hoping to dredge up the muse from her hiding place, and lo! I did! So, Chapter 4 is now available for them as wants it. I've posted it on Twitter, if you don't have Twitter and want it, or the whole story from the start, throw me a comment, or send me an E-mail and let me know.

I am now exceedingly tired indeed, so am off to beddy-byes, once I read my friends' page, so night night to you all!

Something interesting!

2010-01-01T23:34:20Z

Hi y'all! Well, today is a normal kind of day, no Migraine, nice computer, off computer and Skype time with my special ones, nice food. That's it in a nutshell. but, I just saw something interesting, a new kind of game. Find and copy the first sentence from each month of last year you wrote in your lj. Should be quite revealing. As mine usually start with Hi Peeps, I'm going to discount that one. I'm also going to extend it a bit to the first few sentences, because otherwise it's impossible to know what I was writing about. So, I'm just about to plunge into archive land, and start looking!

First in January? Well, we're about an hour into 2009, I hope you all have a great and glorious new year! I've had a wonderful new year's eve, and I'm really rather proud of myself.

First in February?
This started out a nice day.

First in March? Well, not too much to report in the last few days. Had a nasty Migraine after the Nina affair, but that was only to be expected.

First in April? Well, sorry for the gap, it's been a weird kind of week. Full, for me, with the minging migraine monster, as fleurette67 calls him. I urgently need a new head.

First in May? Well, yesterday was a truly awful day again. Being on a short fuse, I rose to what normally wouldn't make me rise, in a Klango forum this was, got told, nicely, to calm down, calmed down, appologized, explained, and then got just slammed into and slated.

First in June? Ok, I don't know how to do cuts, and this is probably going to be long, imotional, and messy, it's to do with Migraines, not my love life. Anyway, you have been warned. I am, at the moment, one very very frightened person.

First in July? Well, it's been five days. Sorry to have been away so long, but then, I ain't the only one. Quieter than a wet monday in Barnsley around here!

First in August? Well, I knew I had it coming, after yesterday's really awful panic attack. I've been unable to lift head from pillow all day until now.

First in September? Well, yesterday was weird, And today's still Migrainey, but thanks to thespyde and blindwriter4god I'm still breathing, and doing fine. Yesterday I blew another fuse, the world drifted out of focus again, and I started thinking the babies were real.

First in October? Today feels all weird and out of sync, so hey! write an entry, why not!

First in November? Today has not been nice at all.

First in December? Well, peeps, this started out to be a nice day, but someone has spoilt it for me, and I'm feeling very bruised right now. But I shall tell you about the good bits.

Yikes on a stick! Am I really as whiny as I sound? Lol! do yours, and see what you come up with!

Ok, I'm going to now go get my fab book, curl up on the couch with pizza and a drink, and have a lovely time. New year's resolution. Try to be more upbeat? Hmmm, that all depends. These pages are a good place to get anything that needs ejecting out of my head and somewhere they can't hurt me. So, probably more whines, moans, sappy stuff and general bearing of soul coming up in 2010! Happy reading, folks! Huge hugs.

Pain Pain, Go Away!

2009-12-30T20:18:04Z

Hi peeps. Not much to report, but I thought I should write and let you know I'm still breathing. Well, yesterday was a nasty day. I woke up with Migraine, my head felt like it was screwed to the pillow! I really miss not having the tank here, or a nice big sofa to lie on when I have petrificus totalus! Anyway, I spent the day in bed, reading the Eve Dallas mysteries by J D Robb. Funny, I normally hate detective stories, but these are fab, because they're set in the future, so there's a good smattering of gadgets and gizmos thrown in, and there's some very juicy scenes between Eve and her very yummy husband. I find the said Eve a bit much sometimes, she's really very prickly and difficult to get along with, but I love her sidekick, Detective Peabody, and the great thing is, you know enough about her life, her friends, to really want to know what's going down in her private world as well as who's bought it and why!

In the afternoon I had one of those horrible things where I got all disorientated and needed Charles to stay with me, so he came and curled up beside me and had a nap too. He's such a comfort to me all the time, every minute, just knowing he's there is so amazing!

Well, today I woke at about eleven, the Migraine is still hovering around, so I doubt I'm going to church today, in fact I think I'm going to lie down for a nap in a minute, I'm feeling weary again. Anyway, I played a bit of Q9, and managed to reache level 3 of the death world before I bit the dust! Nothing much else to write about, so I'll just wish you all a nice day, and send you huggies before hitting the pillow once more! Laters, all!

Game Triumph, and Migraine!

2009-12-28T22:17:21Z

Hi folkies! Well, I was totally trashed last night, so went to bed before nine. I slept like a rock, and woke up at about five this morning. Man, it was colder than a witch's titty, but I came in here to see if anyone was around, which not many people were, but I had some nice talk on Twitter. I also played a game of Q9. the cool thing about that game is, you can save your game, in fact it saves automatically once you begin a new level, so you can just say ok, had enough for now. Anyway, I got to the mountain world before I stopped. Nanna came online, and we had some talk before she had to go get ready to go out. By this time I was beginning to feel Migrainey, and it was freezing cold still, so I snuggled back into bed, ready for the monster to hit, which it duly did. I was supposed to have a hospital appointment today, but it had to be rescheduled.

Well, I woke up late in the afternoon, got up and jumped on skype. Feeling much less aching, though still rather shaky. The house is full of acrid smoke, as our neighbors seem to be burning either trash or their Christmas tree. The smoke is making my nose and eyes run. Nanna got herself some geo-mag, so we now both have things to play with, which is cool!

I settled down to go on with my game of Q9, and I'm proud to write that I have now reached level 2 of the death world, the hardest world there is! I don't think for a minute I'll get much further, but hey! You never know till you try. but, being a bit tired in the hands, I'll leave that for another day. That is such a seriously cool game!

Well, it'll soon be time to eat the last of the turkey and dressing. I just love the dressing Judi brought us. O listen to me! By dressing I mean stuffing, my Brit pals! Americanization alert! O, talking of the U S of A, I heard something that worried me considerably this morning. It's being rumored that, after the last bomb attempt, any electronic devices on planes flying into the U S are going to be outlawed! And what are people supposed to do on those long transatlantic flights? Rely on the crappy looped over in-flight audio which a blind person can't even make work! And what are we supposed to do with the electronics we all live by, our i-pods, our cell phones, cd players, kindles, streams, laptops? Pack them? I've heard you're not allowed to pack electronics, and don't tell me anyone's going to travel without a cell phone! I'm just hoping this is extra hype, and will never happen, but it's worrying me!

Well, I guess that's all from me today. I'm getting hungry so must soon go eat. Hope you're all having a good day. Huge huggies!

Just a Quickie!

2009-12-28T02:57:40Z

Hi, peeps, not much going on today, and I'm feeling tired and a bit migrainey, so I'm off to bed soon, but I wanted to write, cos today's been good.

I overslept and missed church again, third sunday in a row! Just peh! Anyway, when Charles came back he brought me doughnuts, so I had them and a cup of tea, which was yumpsk! Then we got Skype up, and the rest of the day was spent in our usual long, lazy way. I made a great big version of the Impesaurus, that's the dinosaur I made from Zoob pieces, which we call imps, for some reason. So whatever we make has imp in it, like an imp-bot or an imp-erpillar, say. Charles made a great imp-bot today!

Oh, I have to tell you, last night's dinner was just too yumpskelicious for words, I don't think I ever made a better meal! Thanks to Paul and Judi for the turkey and dressing! My baked beans were just, well, awesome! You have to remember, I don't like baked beans usually, can't stand the tinned, or as Charles would say canned ones! Anyway, these were spicy and smoky, like bbq, and just yumpsk! Shame when I get back I won't be able to get all the stuff to do them for Charles, least, I don't think I will. Peh! Don't mean to say I won't try though. And I know there's american food websites you can get American stuff from, so, maybe all is not lost

Anyway, I'm rambling, so I'm off now. Nighters, all!.

Much Better Day!

2009-12-26T23:32:51Z

Hello all! Apart from back ache, which is seriously annoying me, this has been a much better day. I got up about eight, and fixed a hot breakfast for Charles today, because it's very cold out. I then had breakfast myself, and jumped on Skype for a While. My back is aching seriously so I've found it hard to get comfy today. In the afternoon I Went and lay on the sofa, put on some nice music, put Will in his swing, and just chilled big time.

I've been back in puter land for a while now, talking to Nanna and now Trenton on Skype, and chatting with folks on MSN, so yeah, very good. I'm going soon to cook the Christmas dinner. Luckily we have more food than we had before, so we can decide from chicken and stuffing or turkey for the meat, and we'll have spicy potato wedges and baked beans, homemade ones of course. I's getting seriously hungry, so I'm looking forward to that. So I shall now finish this, sending you all huge huggies, and see you all later!

A Mad Christmas!

2009-12-26T06:28:49Z

I wish I could write that my Christmas day wasa complete blast from start to finish! I so wish I could, but it didn't pan out that way, unfortunately.

Well, I woke up about seven-thirty. Jumped up, got on Skype, then had some breakfast. Once we'd eaten, I dropped the call, and went to open my presents. I got lovely things, all things for Will. I got a stroller, a baby swing, and a huge, and I mean huge round canopy bed. I swear, the top of it comes up to my waste! I also got some new clothes for him. Charles was delighted with his talking bible. We had great fun working out where everything went, and how everything worked. We also had, as a kind of communal present, a very groovy set of things called Zoob. They're difficult to describe, but they are a kind of building set, with 125 pieces, several different kinds, which you can click together in lots of different ways. You don't build towers and buildings with these things, you make caterpillars, or I actually made a kind of multi-legged centipede type thing, and the cool thing is, it moves, and bends. We both had great fun with this till I went back to talk to Nanna, and that's where the trouble started.

We were just nattering, catching each other up, and I was about to feed Will, when the constant whine that is Winnie suddenly died. I mean, we were still on Skype, still connected, but the fan had just died. I don't know what the consequences are of working a computer with a broken fan, but I would think it wouldn't take much for it to overheat and blow. Nanna stayed calm, calmer than I was, and said a restart should fix it. Well, she did the restart, and we got back, and then suddenly she said "hello, hello, I can't hear you. I can't hear anything". O crap, I thought, one of the cats stood on the keyboard and her sound card got muted and she doesn't know the unmute key on that new keyboard, or worse, the soundcard has gone die.

It's hard to describe how I felt. Helena is like my sister, closer than a sister, we've held each other up, supported each other for so long. the thought of being without contact at all even if it was just until she got her new computer, it just threw me into the tiz of the century!

She, the Nanna cat, amazed me! Before she had her panic meds, she'd have been in a huge freak out, but she stayed calm. She called me using Mobivox, and we talked, and it suddenly occurred to her that maybe the headset had given out. She looked, and yes! So now she has sound again, she uses headphones, which had come out somehow. Anyway, we were just getting over our fright, and I was still feeling really shaky, when Paul and Judi arrived, absolutely unannounced.

I've seldom been more embarrassed. I had tear tracks on my face, I was in my robe, with my hair all mussed. I hadn't done any housework, so what with present wrappings and boxes all over the place, the house was in chaos! Will's stuff was still all around, and I was embarrassed about that too. I know I'm strange, playing with a doll at my age, but my friends understand me, but people I don't really know so well, they must think me, us, weird in the extreme. There were our blocks all over the table, and a swing stroller and crib and clothes. What they must have thought!

Just as they arrived, with loads of food, the phone rang with my Christmas call from my Mom. I have to say I was glad of the excuse to hurry into the bedroom, adn while we were nattering on the phone I tied back my hair and tidied up some.

When they'd all gone, we had some more chill time, but I could feel the reaction to the fright I'd had creeping up my neck and into my head, and it wasn't long before a Migraine knocked me out flat. So, Christmas dinner will have to be eaten tomorrow. I'm here now, feeling some better, but oh my! What a strange day! At least I wasn't alone, feeling unwanted like last year, and I had some lovely presents. I'm now off to read my friends' page, to see what kind of day you all had. Huggies.

"twas the Night Before Christmas!

2009-12-25T04:44:59Z

Today has just been so completely yayelicious! I'll tell you all about it, but first, as it's Christmas eve here still, I want to give you my all time favorite Christmas poem! I've known bits of this thing since I was an itty bitty girl, and I love it still!

Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house

Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse;

The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,

In hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be there;

The children were nestled all snug in their beds,

While visions of sugar-plums danced in their heads;

And mamma in her 'kerchief, and I in my cap,

Had just settled down for a long winter's nap,

When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,

I sprang from the bed to see what was the matter.

Away to the window I flew like a flash,

Tore open the shutters and threw up the sash.

The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow

Gave the lustre of mid-day to objects below,

When, what to my wondering eyes should appear,

But a miniature sleigh, and eight tiny reindeer,

With a little old driver, so lively and quick,

I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick.

More rapid than eagles his coursers they came,

And he whistled, and shouted, and called them by name;

"Now, Dasher! now, Dancer! now, Prancer and Vixen!

On, Comet! on Cupid! on, Donner and Blitzen!

To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!

Now dash away! dash away! dash away all!"

As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,

When they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky,

So up to the house-top the coursers they flew,

With the sleigh full of toys, and St. Nicholas too.

And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof

The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.

As I drew in my head, and was turning around,

Down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound.

He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,

And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot;

A bundle of toys he had flung on his back,

And he looked like a peddler just opening his pack.

His eyes -- how they twinkled! his dimples how merry!

His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!

His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,

And the beard of his chin was as white as the snow;

The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,

And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath;

He had a broad face and a little round belly,

That shook, when he laughed like a bowlful of jelly.

He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,

And I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself;

A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,

Soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread;

He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,

And filled all the stockings; then turned with a jerk,

And laying his finger aside of his nose,

And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose;

He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,

And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.

But I heard him exclaim, ere he drove out of sight,

"Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good-night."

Aw! Aw! I just love that! My eyes are tearing up as I read it back, it's gorgeous!

Ok, so, what did I do today? Well, I woke up at seven for my pills, and once awake couldn't stay asleep, I was so so excited! I jumped up, and there was Nanna on skype all ready. So we talked a while, then she dropped, cos she had to go spend time with her husband for their special Christmas traditions. So, I saw there was a big Skype conference over at Kristian's. Now skype conferences are difficult for me, the residue of my illness last year still lingers. But, so many of my friends were there, I couldn't resist popping in to say hello. Just coolness, it was. Ok, we had a good bit of tightness, and I couldn't stay long, but I was there!

Then i powered up internet explorer and tuned to radio 4 for the carol service from Kings. By this time there was thunder and rain, and we lost the stream twice, which annoyed me rather, but on the whole it was a beautiful service, the re-establishing of my years old tradition.

After that I hung around some, and then went to cook the baked beans which will be part of our dinner tomorrow. They filled the house with an awesome smell while they were cooking. Nanna came back online later, and I opened a couple of wine coolers, as she was having a drink or two as well. Then charles and I have just been hanging, talking of this and that. Oh, lord, I nearly forgot, we recorded the new carol today. I have to say, the whole thing came out better than I dared to hope! If you'd like it, go here and enjoy!

Well, then we got hungry, so Charles had a big bowl of my beans with smoked sausage chopped into it, and i had my favorite, a pizza, just a frozen one, but man, I love pizza!

I seriously cannot wait for tomorrow! Aw man! I'll be in bed early tonight, and thanking goodness for my sleep meds, or I'd be awake all night!

It only remains for me, before I close, to wish you all peace, and joy, and a very merry Christmas. Hugs all. Till tomorrow!

Getting Excited!

2009-12-24T05:34:30Z

Holy wow! If I feel like this now, how am I going to feel tomorrow night? I'm so freaking excited I can hardly stand it!

Today started late, I didn't wake until after twelve, but once I had, I got on Skype, had some breakfast, and spent the bulk of the day in my usual lazy, lovely way. While I was doing that, Charles was buzzing around like a demented bee, doing laundry, getting various things ready for Christmas that he wouldn't divulge, and learning a carol for tonight's special service. When it was done we thought to make an arrangement of it, and that's what he's doing right now, I'm hoping to record and publish it tomorrow, just in time for Christmas.

About six we headed out to church. The carol went beautifully, the service was gorgeous. I started to really, really feel Christmassy. My one real regret is I didn't bring my Christmas folder over here, so I have no real Christmas music, I have an Aled Jones album, and a Kate Rusby album, and the odd bit Charles has collected, but none of the songs I'm so used to! No Slade, no Mike Oldfield, no Greg Lake, no Carpenters, no band aid, no Waitresses, ah, you won't know that one, it's called Christmas Rapping, and I like it! Anyway, no Shakey, no Paul McCartney, no Wham for freak's sake, boo freaking hoo! I'll have to put the radio on tomorrow, see what the Phoenix or TBRN offers me. Can't do Christmas eve, nor Christmas day, without a good variety of Christmas tunes! And some nice carols, well, I've got plenty of those, but you can't have Christmas, least I can't, without all the cheesy songs I heard when I was a tot and grew up with!

Anyway, I'm digressing! we ordered pizza when we got in, as we were so freaking starvacious, and scarfed the whole lot when it came! then we snuggled up with a movie. I was just thinking of calling it a night, when I heard someone sign in on Skype, and thought it might well be the cat. And lo and behold, it was. She'd had a nightmare, so we fed babies together, and now she's much calmer and more her happy self.

Tomorrow is going to be fairly busy, for me! I have to cook the homemade baked beans for Christmas dinner, that's going to take some doing! I'm making them cos Charles loves baked beans, and I've tasted some nice ones, so know if they come out right they can be yummers! Just cross your fingers for me, I've had to buy a lot of fancy ingredients, so let's hope I don't mess it up!

Charles is still working on the arrangement, but he's nearly done, so I think it's soon time to hit the pillow. Aw man! I feel so good, so happy, so at peace, I just thank God in heaven for it! My heart is with friends who might be sick in body or sad at heart. Don't forget I'm always here. Huge, huge huggies to all of you, wherever you are in the world! Nighty night all!

Gosh! Nearly forgot!

2009-12-23T04:06:13Z

Hey gang! I was just reading through old lj entries, and I found something I always do this time of year, that no one has done yet that I've seen. So here, long drum roll, is my letter to Santa!

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last month I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). In May I helped thespyde see the light (8 points). In April I turned ezzie_j in for tearing the tag off a mattress (3 points). In July I gave nanna1960 a life-saving blood transfusion (50 points). In March I donated bone marrow to raynbo0701 in a life-saving procedure (300 points).

Overall, I've been nice (380 points). For Christmas I deserve a wedgie!

Sincerely,
lulu_bear66

so yay, for I think the first time, I get something good for christmas, even though I have no idea what in the name of the light it is! And I even helped thespyde to see the light. That's very ironic, as if you look at last year's letter, you'll see who I helped last year. Hmmm. Well, at least we're still friends, which is a good thing.

I'm just sipping on something called a strawberry Dacquiri wine cooler, and I'm here to tell you it's yumpsk! I picked up a good few, various flavors, to last me over Christmas. Sadly, this is going to be the first Christmas ever I haven't (a) listened to the carols from Kings College, and (B) bought and consumed a bottle of Advocat, a creamy Dutch drink of which I'm inordinately fond! Never mind, this Christmas is going to be happy all the way, I hope and pray, which the last two certainly haven't been! So, I'm kind of feeling mellow and thoughtful right now. I hope Santa brings you all you wish for this Christmas. Huggies y'all.

Feeling Festive!

2009-12-23T02:43:09Z

Hi, peeps. Well, yesterday was a weird day, spent either in bad pain or asleep. I awoke last night at eleven when I had to take my pill, and couldn't for the life of me get back to sleep until eight this morning! A good book kept me company through the watches of the night, and at eight I went under till one pm.

After that I arose, had breakfast and a natter with the dear sweet cat, then jumped into a shower and dressed, and made a shopping list. Bess came about three thirty and took us shopping. We got a mort of stuff, and now we are all set for Christmas. I did forget one thing, which is fairly vital, and will have to pop to Brookshers for it, which is a bummer! Anyway, for our christmas dinner we will be having a turkey roast with gravy, spicy potato wedges, and home made baked beans. I'm nervous about the beans, I hope I can get them as good as Judi's sister Miss Barbara got hers. I picked me up some wine coolers to drink over Christmas, and I'm trying to resist pouring myself one now, just to get me in the spirit of things.

Tomorrow is our Christmas service at church, and I'm going to sing the candlelight carol, which is my absolute fave! And that's about all for now, except to say Yay for a good Christmas in the offing, and huge huggies to all my friends! See y'all!

Yurg!

2009-12-20T21:26:01Z

Hi peeps, just a quick one to give you a new song, and tell you I'm alive. Migraine's been here for the last two days, total Yurg! I am so sick of missing church because of these damn things!

Anyway, things are ok apart from the health, I had some nice E-mail with a friend I'm fond of today. Also, on Friday evening, I recorded a spiffy new song. you can hear it here and I really hope, if you don't like my singing so much, you like the song, because it's a real real bute!

Well, that's about it, folkies! Christmas coming closer, so yay to that. Another parcel came yesterday! Yikes! Time. Hurry. up! Oh, and Philip Bennefall, for freak's sake, bring that new game out, cos I wanna play! Now! Huggies y'all!

Meds Up The Wazoo!

2009-12-18T21:18:22Z

Hi, peeps. Well, today is better than yesterday. Today I'm up, talking on Skype, I've recorded a couple of new tracks, one a very silly Christmas track, the other more sad and gorgeous. If you'd like to hear them go right here and grab the zipped folder.

Yesterday was very nasty indeed, I was completely blocked up, Migrainey, dizzy, too short of breath to eat or drink anything with pleasure. When my sinuses are at their worst, I literally can't move air through my blocked nose, it won't breathe in or out, but continues to, er, dribble nastily, sorry for the T M I, but it sucks. When I do manage to blow, it smells disgusting, totally rank and acidic, almost metallic! The thing is, this should not be happening. I'm taking strong antibiotics, plus an antihistamine, plus a spray. So why am I still so deeply infected?

I think my ear's improved some, because I'm hearing much better now. I've had to hand over the meds to Doctor Spyde, as I have a memory like a sieve, and can so easily forget to put my drops in, or take my pills. I just bless him for being so good to me.

Well, I'm feeling rather at a loose end at the moment, not sure what to do with myself. Having caught you up as much as I can, I guess I'll goof off and find something or other. It's only a week to Christmas, yayage! I can't freaking wait. things keep arriving and I don't know what all they are. This week's going to drag!

Ok, huge huggies to all my friends, especially any with a lot on their minds, or who aren't feeling their best. See y'all laters.

A Yay Kind Of Day!

2009-12-15T02:11:18Z

Well, things have improved around here, so yay to that! Last night my sleep was completely skewed, I slept some, woke some and read an excellent J D Rob mystery. I woke up properly about ten this morning, and the first thing I thought was, yay! The cat's home. I jumped up, grabbed some clothes, and ran into the den, and she was! We spent a nice long time, the three of us, catching up. I had huge amount of mail and tweets and Klango to catch up on, so I did that while we all nattered.

About one, I jumped in a shower, and dressed to go out. For this afternoon I had an appointment at the hospital about my stupid freaking ear! We got seen fairly early, and O Joy! It's still infected, so, more antibiotics, more drops, and a antihistamine too!

We had to go by Brookshers to pick up the meds, and while I was there I wanted some groceries. Bess took us home to her place while she finished seeing her patients, she works as a private nurse, and then she and her husband Dan took us to the shop, and we had a very successful shop.

I didn't get back till late in Sweden, but the cat's still up, having napped earlier, so we three are back on Skype, doing our own things and chatting desultorily. I had a yumpskelicious pizza for dinner, followed by a handful of some new chips I hadn't tried called Midnight Tacos, they were totally delumptious! I topped it off with two rice Krispie bars and a cuppa tea. Oink, oink! Anyone wanna buy a fat pig? Teeheeheehee!

So, that's the end of a very yayelicious kind of day. Aw man, Avril Lavine is shrieking at me, I wish she wouldn't. I'm off for now, see y'all laters, and huge huggies!

What A Day!

2009-12-13T06:26:47Z

Hi peeps. These last few days have been nasty, but today just caps them all. I've had a really, really nasty Migraine which makes you think it's gone, then comes back! Today I had a major run in with someone. I can't talk about why, as it involves other people, but just suffice it to say, I don't know when I've felt more furious. I really thought I'd never go on Klango again, it's just getting to be too damn much! but I've had too many good times on there to be stopped from having more, and making more friends. If I can't avoid this person, I'll just have to use it as a media player. That's all I feel like saying really. Huge hugs to my friends.

Better than it started!

2009-12-09T19:18:50Z

Hi peeps. Well, today did not have a good start at all! I woke up feeling Migrainey, and with a madly itching ear. I can't wait to go back and get this stupid thing looked at!

I also heard that Charles was on the phone It was Mum. Now, she only called a couple days ago, so I knew something had gone pear-shaped. Well, the lawyers had tried E-mailing me at my American address, and had had a permanent delivery failure notice, it said that their address had been blocked because of abuse! I ask you! I sure hadn't blocked them, nor anyone else for that matter. So, back to my old home E-mail addy for the lawyers, though not for anyone else, my American one works with everyone except them! This means I'll have to remember to check every day now. Peh!

Well, it was only a little thing, but it just made me feel shaky, homesick, far far away from everyone. I clung on to charles, and had to call the Cat, who was sleeping, and with the help of two of them, I got myself back on an even keel.

The house was freezing, as the weather had been mild, and we'd gone to bed with no heating on! It's frozen today, and the house felt like the arctic circle! My ear hurt. My head felt full of cotton candy, and I felt like hell, and had a huge cry.

Well, time spent with a spyde and a cat improved things, as did coffee and breakfast. I sorted things with the lawyers, and then played some super egg hunt, and achieved 186, a new personal best!

So, I'm feeling heaps more peaceful now. I don't know if I'll go out, feeling really dizzy and Migrainey, so maybe stay in the warm. Have I written that Paul took Charles shopping yesterday? Don't think I did. He spent a mint of money, but we're now stocked up for a couple of weeks at least, so yay to that too!

Well, that does me, I guess. I'm off to find something to do. Huge huggies to all my friends! See y'all!

A slight whine, and a Survey.

2009-12-08T22:00:13Z

Hi peeps. Well today is weird, I feel all out of sync, homesick, just rather down. Charles has an awful cough and sore throat, my ear is still bad, just Peh in the extreme! On the good side, I'm warm since Levi the handy man fixed the window, and I have the dear cat on Skype, so life ain't all bad!

Well, not much else to say, so here's a survey I got from chiming_magic my answers are typically up front, so read at own risk.

Random questions to get to know me better!
Sometimes deep, sometimes just random. Either way, It'd be nice if you'd answer honestly.

1. How old are you? 43.
2. How old do you think you are mentally? That's hard. Parts of me are still childlike, for example my love of toys and dolls, but parts of me are battle scarred and deeply grown up. That's the best answer I can give.
3. Diet coke or coke zero? Neither! Yukk in a bucket! Regular coke all the way.
4. Summer or winter? Winter, as long as I can be cosy and warm!
5. Do you have a life motto? I have two. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. There is more happiness in giving than in receiving.
6. Happiest year in your life? Gosh, I really don't know! I've known great happiness this year, but also had great troubles. As for the past, it's always been the same, very mixed for me.
7. Happiest day this year? February 16th. When Charles first put his arms around me and held me in front of God and everyone, right there in the airport, I knew he was right for me and I for him. Just absolute certainty which has never wavered for a second.
8. Singing or dancing? Singing all the way!!
9. spontaneous or well-planned? Usually well planned. I can be spontanious, but more often every I is dotted and every T crossed!
10. School or work? Neither. I hated school, and hated the one job I ever got. I'm much happier now.
11. Rice or pasta? Rice. I do love pasta, but given the choice like rice dishes better. I also cook a lot more with rice.
12. Are you happy where you live? I live in two countries. In wales I'm deeply happy. Here in the U S, much less so, but not unhappy enough not to come here when I have to.
13. What do you wish the most right now? that Charles and I could settle down in Wales forever.
14. Your dream holiday? I don't have one. I like staying home, and do too much traveling as it is.
15. Your goal in life? To be there for those I love and for my precious friends, to Marry Charles and live happily ever after!
16. Bodyshop or lush? Neither! I like body shop products, but can't get them often, as the nearest one to me is miles away in a town I can't visit. Never had anything from lush, but hate the stink of it! You can always tell you're near one, the smell's fit to knock you down!
17. Ever wanted to host a bodyshop party in your home? Nope. The only times I tried hosting parties, they were dismal flops.
18. When you look in the mirror (or, if you can't see, if you think about yourself), do you like what you see and what you are? Yes, I do. I'm not perfect by a long way, but I've worked hard to accept myself, warts and all.
19. Do your clothes have to be fashionable or comfortable? I can't see why one precludes the other. My clothes are both. I always dress in things I find comfortable to wear, but I also wear clothes that look modern, and won't date with time. It doesn't mean because you like to look up to date that you're tarty.
20. What do you think are your strengths? My loving heart, sense of humor, loyalty to my friends and loved ones, my ability to take hard knocks and go on standing.
21. Do you tend to think more about your weaknesses than your strengths? No, I have plenty of weaknesses, but to dwell on them would be self-distructive. There are enough people in this world trying to put you down, without you doing it to yourself!
22. How do you usually react when someone compliments you? I smile widely and thank them, and usually feel very pleased.

23. Are you good at giving compliments? yes, I try to do it whenever I can, knowing that it makes me feel good, I want to do the same for other people.
24. Can you sense atmospheres around people, like uneasiness or easy to talk to etc.? that really depends on who it is. If there is something wrong in the world of anyone I love, I usually know without being told. It doesn't work so well for people I don't know.
25. Where would you love to go on holiday? I really don't have anywhere, that's the truth. I want to stay home.
26. Would you say you are an honest person? Yes. I have made forays into the path of un honesty, and it was awful. Now I'm always honest about myself and my life, and with others when I can do it without hurting them.
27. Ever cheated on your BF/GF? Yes, I cheated on my former husband. It was the worst, most awful thing I ever did, and also turned out to be a monumental mistake from every point of view. I always said I'd never ever do it, but you don't know what desperation and loneliness will drive you to. One lesson I learned from that whole miserable episode is to never say never.
28. Can you keep a secret? Yes.
29. Milk or water? Again, I don't like either much as a plain drink, but if I had to choose which, I'd say water.
30. Tea or coffee? I love both, but asked to choose, coffee's the one I couldn't do without!
31. Do you sometimes wish you were still a child? Not on your nellie! I wouldn't go back over that again for all the rice in china!
32. Describe yourself in 3 words! Passionate, impulsive, caring.
33. How much time do you spend caring for your hair and skin? For my skin, not. I generally leave it to get on with things, unless it feels really dry, in which case it gets a quick rub of whatever moisturiser I've got. For my hair, not a huge amount, but more, as I like it to be clean, and tied back off my face during the day.
34. Do you think you changed this year? Oh yeah! At the beginning of this year I was broken, literally, deeply unhappy, with stinking bad nerves. Now I'm strong again, happier than I've ever been, looking forward to the future instead of thinking, do I really have to do this?
35. If someone hadn't seen you for a while and they'd see you again now, what do you think they'd say about you? Wow, that's hard. You finally grew up, maybe?
36. Like getting drunk? Nope. I hardly ever touch a drop these days. I try never to have too much, because it's seductive. I go on thinking fill it up, and just another shot, and just one more, until I'm ratted, and sick, and feel like hell the next day. Safer to keep off it.
37. Do you do things that your parents did and you swore never to do? I used to. When I was little I hated my parents smoking, and lo and behold, at twenty-two I started, and couldn't kick it until this year.
38. favourite ssmell? Orange blossom.
39. which famous person did you fancy when you were a teen? Jeff Lynne, the lead singer of the Electric Light Orchestra.
40. Has anyone ever read your private diary and embarrassed you? Once I wrote a book, the story of my life. I wrote it on a private directory, passworded, on J's computer. No one read it. I just had things in my head I wanted to eject from my body and mind. When I finished it I deleted it. It said some true, but very harsh things about my parents that I wouldn't have had them or anyone read for a million bucks. The whole tone of it was bitter, twisted, spiteful. What I didn't know was, J found it, and kept a copy, and at one very low period between us, he sent it to my Mother, who was recovering from a mental breakdown. She didn't speak to me for a year.
41. What would be your perfect Christmas? All the people I love most under one roof, loads of presents, turkey, love and laughter.
42. Who in your family are you closest to? My Mother. She annoys me to screaming blue rage at times, but I wouldn't be without her for anything.
43. Anyone found you on facebook after more than 10 years? Nope, and it would be very unlikely, as both my first and sur name have changed since I was young.
44. Swimming or running? Swimming, I just love it, but haven't been in ages. a dream of mine is to have a house with an indoor pool, all to myself!
45. Most relaxing sound? I love nature sounds, so a summer garden, or a forest, maybe?
46. Can you play an instrument? Yes, a bit of keyboard, but I suck royally!
47. If you could invent a job, what would it be? I'd love to string pearls for a living. I love the cool, slick feel of them. I'd just love to spend my days making long strings of them, boxing them in velvet boxes, and sending them off to customers, or stores.
48. Best gift anyone ever gave you? That would be William Charles, little Will, the Lee Middleton Newborn nursery baby Charles bought me just before I came here for the first time. He bought it so I wouldn't have to risk losing one of mine in flight. I was there when Will arrived, on skype, heard everything, and holding him for the first time was even better. He has an amazing amount of things now, and is very dear to both of us. I know, he's only a doll, but he's our American baby, always will be.
49. Sweet or savery food? Both! Often!
50. Do you like gossiping? This is my probably worst fault. Listening to what's happening on the grapevine, wanting to be in the know. I'm not one of those self-righteous people who say, I never listen to gossip, because everyone does at some time or another. One thing I will say about myself though, I don't repeat nasty things, I hear all and say nowt. And if anyone tells me something in confidence, it will go with me to the grave, you can take it to the bank!

And there you are. Hope I see some others do this. Oh God! A really, really wouchy song just came on. I. do. not. need. this! I'm out of here!

Chilly in ere, ain't it!

2009-12-06T22:05:47Z

Hi peeps. It is freakin freezing out, I doubt it's much above freezing. And we have no heating but gas space heaters, and an electric under desk fan. So, the gas is roaring full blast, but still cold drafts keep whistling through here. This does not make for a happy bear. My ear is still being screwy, and this does not make the bear happy either.

We went to church this morning, I nearly missed it due to oversleeping, but so glad I went. We had our usual yummelicious doughnuts, and then a lovely service, although it was only Paul, Judi, Charles and me. We sang to raise up the roof, and it was just awesome.

This afternoon I've just been doing my normal stuff. I just got a call from Mom and Geoff, and we brought them up to date on the week's action. I managed to scare my sweet cat badly. I had to do a puter restart, and I forgot this Skype is not like my own, configured to automatically start. So I forgot to put it up, and when she came back from her nap she didn't see me, and couldn't get me on the phone, as I was on with Mom, Charles's cell was off, and mine in the bedroom. That's how I finally knew she was worrying, thinking the neighbors had come back and done something to us. I heard her ringtone and thought, yikes, that's code red! Anyway, she's ok now. I guess some people might think it's over reacting to worry, but I'd have been exactly the same in her place. Just have to remember, restart equals put skype back up!

Well, that gets you all caught up now. I think I have a Migraine coming. Peh! Hope it buggers off!

Oo yikes, nearly forgot. I got a pass around E-mail with the one word survey in it. I've done two of these already, but hey! These questions are slightly different, and I thought I'd do it again, just for kicks! So I'll leave you now, with my immortal one word answers. Bye y'all!

Where is your cell phone?

bedroom.

Significant other?

Gorgeous!
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Your hair?

brown.

Your mother?

Rock.

Your father?

Unreliable.

Your favorite thing?

love.

Your dream last night?

Non-existent.

Your favorite drink?

champagne.

What room are you in?

den.

Your hobby?

Computer.

Your fear?

Parting.

Where do you want to be in 6 years?

Married.

Where were you last night?

Here.

Something that you aren't?

Vindictive.

Muffins?

Yumpsk!

Wish list item?

Visa.

Last thing you did?

Showered.

What are you wearing?

Jeans.

TV?

None.

Your pets?

None.

Friends?

Precious!

Your life?

Good!

Your mood?

Cheerful.

Missing someone?

Yes.

Drinking?

Nope.

Your car?

None.

Something you're not wearing?

Coat.

Your favorite store?

Net.

Your favorite color?

Red.

When is the last time you cried?

Yesterday.

Who will resend this?

Clare.

Where do you go to over and over?

Church.

Five people who email me regularly?

Geno, Nanna, Clare, Kay, Rob.

My favorite place to eat?

Home.

Favorite place I'd like to be right now?

Wales.

Four people I think will respond

Clare, Kay, Nanna, Charles.
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Spoke Too Soon

2009-12-06T02:10:21Z

Well, would you believe it! Not a few minutes after writing my previous entry, I was just sitting here talking to charles and nanna, when I heard some bangs, then a crash. Someone was throwing rocks at the house, and they finally broke a window. We called the cops, but they skidaddled before they got here. Still. We think it was the neighbors this side, the ones we've had trouble with re their ceptic tank alarm. Anyway, I feel scared now, and not safe anymore.

On a lighter note, the 3 new tracks are ready, so if you'd like to hear, go here and download and hopefully enjoy them. See y'all laters.

What a good day!

2009-12-05T23:05:41Z

Hi peeps. Well, this day is turning into a proper stonker! Firstly I'm having lovely talks on Skype and Twitter, secondly, I just recorded 3 successful new Joyspring tracks. Third, I just installed my dropbox, with C's permission on to Joe. It makes sense, as his droppy's on Nettie, and if we get her connected that's what he'll be using. One of the good things about having droppy up is, I knew I'd left a copy of LJ client on it, and here it is, now fully installed on Joe, so I don't have to face that freaking website again for a long time.

So yeah, today is just a box of yaycakes with little chocolate fairies on top! So now I shall buzz off and catch you all laters, when the linke for the new songs will be posted. Laters, all!

Peace In the Valley

2009-12-03T02:16:19Z

Hi y'all! Well, I think that's a song, in fact I know it is, a gospel song I heard once, but it's how I'm feeling right now. Today has been nice, calm, normal, nothing special, but I'm starting to feel settled and sorted, and things in some kind of workable pattern.

As regards my run in with a Klangon, I gently pointed out the nastiness, without over reacting which is a thing I'm prone to, whereupon he appologized handsomely and, while we'll never be friends, at least I don't have to feel scared of going on there again. Philip Bennefall, the creator of the Q9 action game both thespyde and I fixate on, became a Klangon today, and posted to the Q9 forum, answering a question of mine. Very good times!

Otherwise, it's just been the same lovely old ways. Lots of talk on Skype with the dear Nanna cat, and on Twitter with other friends, and my special spyde curled up on the sofa next to my computer chair with the netbook, which, even though it isn't connected to the net, can be used to read, listen and play games.

My Christmas presents, or I think part of them from what Charles says, turned up today. Santa's elf is rustling and clanking softly, and threatening me with worse than hell and tarnation if I so much as approach within three feet of him. Now I ask you, is that reasonable? I'm so excited about Christmas, I'm having mostly stuff for Will, together with something else I've dearly wanted for a while. Suffice it to say, this overgrown kid is having all toys for her Christmas presents, and loving it! They won't be wrapped, but they'll be hidden until Christmas day when I can see them. Me can't wait!

Oh this isnt' fair, he's laughing delightedly, and making cooing sounds, and he won't let me see nuffink! peh on it! I'll burst before Crimba day! Ah well. Guess I'll goof off and do something else now. Big huggies to you all!

Fizzy and funny and...fine?

2009-11-30T12:25:58Z

Wow. I haven't slept since yesterday, and I feel absolutely weird! Completely buzzed and hyper, like a violin string pulled too tight. That's what Nanna says I sound like, and she's right.

Well, the last few days haven't been very pleasant for me, I've had an awful Migraine that simply seemed to go on and on and on, and coupled with a really nasty cold, it made me feel very ill indeed, even by my standards. I haven't done much of anything except read, eat and sleep, with a little computer time thrown in when I've felt up to it.

Yesterday was the worst, headache wise, I couldn't go to church, and no painkillers would shake it. In the end we tried cool cloths on the head, cuddling Will, everything we could think of but nothing helped, and finally I just dropped off to sleep from sheer exhaustion! I woke at after six in the evening, and came in to the puter, and managed to have some rare time with the Nanna cat! I can't tell you how isolated and strange it's making me feel to read all my friends' tweets, or most of them, when I'm fixing to get up, they're more than halfway through the day. But the time difference is hitting Nanna hardest, because what with that and feeling so rotten I haven't been able to be with her as much as I'd like to. I miss all my friends, but her I miss so much it isn't even funny!

Well, after we'd talked some, and she'd gone off to get some sleep, I was nerdling about, doing this and that, and the neighbours' ceptic tank alarm went off. And on, and on, and on it went, a single, high-pitched whistling note that drilled holes through my sensitive brain pan until I was about ready to scream the place down.

By the time it stopped I was beyond sleeping, as was Charles, so we've just been talking and doing stuff. Now i'm back on Skype with Nanna, and tweeting with my other friends. Thinking of signing into msn soon, haven't showed my nose for ages. I know I'll come down eventually, and go ker flop big time, but I'm making the most of this nice time while I can.

So, that's a very buzzy bear over and out for today! Big huggies, y'all!